As you can probably assume, the picture to the left is an image portraying Sysiphus. He has so much on his shoulders, so much pressure to get that rock going without failing, but he knows he is set up to fail. In calculus we are being set up like Sysiphus, we have a lot on our shoulders, but we are not to fail, but to succeed.. I feel as if I have set myself up to fail.
I am doing this blog for many reasons. One being, I am still at that point where I am contemplating- to stay in or to leave. And by doing this blog, I am hoping it will help me with my decision. But to be honest, I see no progress in myself, you guys or Mr. K did not fail me, I failed you. If you have not noticed, I have not been in class for the last two days. I have already disappointed myself, but also you guys! Being in this class does have its ups and downs. Its so frustrating when its so quiet but then we get this spark of hope that we are going somewhere as a group. I guess another reason why I am doing this blog is because it may be my last. I dont know yet. It may not. You might see me tomorrow morning in class, you may not.. If you see me there, that means I am giving it another try, and if you dont see me there, I give my apologizies to you all, I didnt mean to let anyone down. We are all in that class for a reason.. believe it or not..*whisper* People think that we're that smart and capable of doing this!
I guess this can be either my TESTblog, or a final blog. So one thing that frustrated me so much was logs! I HATE LOGS! Well, when I went to get some help from Mr. K, and was shown the answer and how to do it, i was thinking to my self "THATS IT?!" I think I tend to look at things a little more difficult than it really is. I was so shocked when I found out that that is all you have to do! I FELT SMART ;)
One thing I have come accross in the 'real world' is feeling like Sysiphus. I had a talk with Mr. K, and he says he sees no effort. I see no effort myself.. SOMEONE! kick me in the butt and tell me to put some effort into this. I guess, i feel as if, every time I attempt to do the homework, I am like hey I can do this! But once I stumble accross a question where I dont know what I am doing, i give up! Unlike Sysiphus he has a rock on his shoulders, I have a lot on my shoulders.. but thats not an excuse to quit! I knew from the start that I was taking a heavy load, and I was willing to do that. I know a lot of these things. Maybe I am frustrated with my ankle and just the way this school year has started.. WHATEVER it is! I still shouldnt quit. I AM NOT A QUITTER. I do not like to quit or give up. ( i know this is long, but and im rambling on and on, but i need a place to let this out and maybe i can come to an answer!)
* A note to MR. K- if and only if i decide to go to class, do not be surprised with my mark on the test. but please be glad that i stayed. If i do stay, I will promise to try. If I do not show up, I am sorry.
*A note to you guys- I am also sorry.
Feel free to comment and voice your opinion, because really I do not know what to do! HELP!